Reality's Terms

by David Tiesma (Notes) on Monday, January 28, 2013 at 8:56pm

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Too often do I fantasize and idealize reality. 

It is easier and safer to view the world the way it should be, at least as it should be through the filter of my eyes, my life. There are too many unknowns, too many risks to fully enter in as it is. Like a pool of cold water, I am only willing to enter in to a certain depth. I must not, can not let it chill me for it may kill me. 

There is no guarantee of the outcome. It is all muddled and confused. 

So through music and entertainment mixed with my own thoughts, I think of the world and relationships as I would deem them to be. 

But to do this has it's own cost, as do all things. 

I am a fly, crashing into the glass, over and over and over again. Not trying to get out, but trying desperately to get in.  Real life is being lived inside. I can see it happening, but I am obstructed by the glass that has been formed by my own will and decisions.